Sunday, September 23, 2012

Inevitable

I think that there are only two things the future holds: old age and loneliness. 

I don't say this with anger or even disappointment, but only acceptance.

The Christians in my past life might say that 'Christ will always be with you' and that is a guarantee that you'll never be alone.  But that's just a function of how well you can convince or delude yourself in that moment. 

I have been thinking a lot about old people in retirement homes.  It makes me a little sad about the strangers they are forced to spend their time with.  I wonder if there will be gay retirement homes in the future and whether they will be more like how gay bars are, with more of a sense of community.  Gay people are used to strike up friendships and are more experienced with fending for ourselves.  Will it convivial or am I just fooling myself into thinking that there will be future without crushing loneliness.

I don't know.  If I think about it it makes me understand why stories of old people being swindled by a 'kindly stranger' happen. I wonder if  'swindled' is the right word.  Isn't it a sort of a trade? For attention or companionship? I don't know.

I do hope that a gay retirement home where people sing show tunes, carry on over a cocktail, discuss books and movies or maybe even bust out in the latest dance move, creaky joints and all, exists somewhere.  Somewhere over the rainbow or in a wardrobe or down a rabbit hole.

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